[quote="gordon"]Moin,
ich kotz gleich ich poste jetzt einfach mal quer.
ne das darf ich irgendwie nicht tun obwohl mir danach waere.
ich geb mal n bischen teile:
[02:10, 19.7.2017] hilde: But how viable is our future
[02:10, 19.7.2017] hilde: It's zero
[02:10, 19.7.2017] hilde: Someone has to put an end to this
[02:11, 19.7.2017] hilde: I can't but I do the impossible
[02:12, 19.7.2017] hilde: And u have ducking no idea how much it hurts
[02:14, 19.7.2017] hilde: But gordon I fu. really love you
Hey, Ich folge dein thread ganz vom Anfang....I hope you don't mind if I contribute my 2 cents in English.
What I've gathered so far: The chemie (both mental and physical) was present on both sides coupled with very strong emotions for each other. You were ready for an exclusive R. with Hilda but because of her marriage, you had no other choice but to WAIT until she finally *separates*. You shared that there were some serious complications on Hilda's side which you did understand and accepted. This is the underlying rational part.
The whole drama of 'I love you so much but you can't have me 100%' only added to the dynamics of developing a very strong connection on your part.
Now getting to the drama details..She sends you all those messages during the night..."I love you..blahblah ."but it won't work"..."please let me go". And when you finally let her go because you're tired of her *beep*, as a response, she sends you a long VIDEO with Shakespeare and Po quotes in the middle of the night and even to blame you at the end.?
And if that wasn't enough, she keeps harrasing you from multiple different phone numbers repeating the same again.."I love you, you don't love me, it's too hard.." it sounds like
emotional instability.Honestly, she might be a brilliant attorney with 3 law degrees but
that level of communication you just shared with us in my eyes sounds like an emotional IQ of a 14 y.o. . And I don't mean it as an insult. I rather think she has a serious psychological problem. She could be manic depressive or borderline. When she feels euphoric, she
has concrete plans for the future and when she is down,
she beaks up with you it's a never ending cycle. It also has a little "fatal attraction" quality to it...so my advice or if I were you..."Run forest run..." and don't let this get out of hand. I wouldn't even reply wit a "nope" or "who is on the pic" because it gives her the opportunity to leave the door open for her to come back in the future or just show up in the front of the door. But you know what's the positive side effect of the whole drama? During this journey you gained some wonderful friends.
